so apparently this is my last week in the army!.so close yet so far away.
I don’t know what is going to happen next Sunday when I will return my equipment and my gun and will finally go home.
I dreamt about this day for 3 years,I breath this day. I’m caressing for him to come but because it’s like a mythical event. I have some irrational fear that when I will go to the bus that will take mr home..an “inception” event will happen and I will be stuck in a loophole for the rest of my life.
my feelings in the last week are fear and excitement. I fear because I’m entering a new era but I’m excited because I’m free at last!
meanwhile the world cup is on.
although I’m not a crazy football fan there are things I never miss! Not even in the army!.(champion league is one of them too!)
so here im watching the world cup on uniforms and still having some good time!
this is the valley of tears between Israel and Syria where so many blood have been shed but the situation is calm now
its so weird to be here in these quiet valley and think that hundreds of men lost their lives exactly here.
now it’s all quite and the view is awesome!.i sit here all day long with a black strong cup of coffee and with my Robert Johnson playlist(a blues singer from the 40′s).
there are days that I put my symphonic female fronted and growls metal and just thinking about stuff..
for me the valley of tears became the valley of thoughts!
that seldom moment…
that seldom moment when you finish and end of an era..when you can look back and say”I did it!”..we all have this moments..if we could just pause the time for a moment and concentrate on the moments solely..we will appreciate things alot more.
after years in the army I have this moment..the moment when i look at my tank for the last time..that machine that been with me for so long..saw me bleed (physically)..saw me shed tears of suffer and despair..saw me happy and excited.
I look at my tank and I know that its my closest partner.my secret keeper.
he knows me and I knows him.
do you guys remember any of this moments? Please share it with me