Another day another terrorist attack in Jerusalem

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In the last couple of months there is a sharp rise in the statistics-the statistics of terrorist attack in Israel and especially in Jerusalem.

back in the beginning of this century we had couple of grim years of suicide bombing on our buses and restaurants,an attacks that came from an organized extreme Muslim groups.our own FBI call Shabak managed to infiltrate those groups and after couple of years the descended to propaganda groups without any ability to attack us.
In recent months there is a new trend among many extreme Muslim people in the West bank and especially in east Jerusalem(where a lot of Palestinians lives in a poor conditions but work in Israel). this trend is very similar to the shooting in high schools trend that happening in the USA once in a while-a Palestinian guy can wake up in the morning after working in Jerusalem for 15 years and take his taxi and just make a killing spree with it on some innocent bystanders. it’s called “the lonely terrorist attack” and it’s characteristics are that it will come in a surprise with no early planning by the attacker and no clues. I think you’ll understand why it’s hard to stop those kind of attacks. how can our intelligence infiltrate an ordinary man mind? you can’t,you don’t even have some rules or guidelines to decide who is the typical people to executes those attack.

so what is the solution?
some say we need to deter those people by destroying their families homes after they attacked,some say we need to exclude them and cancel their citizenships.

what is my answer?-give them hope
when you give the population an economic opportunity and greater infrastructures like running water,better roads,more educational chances people will have something to look for..a light in the end of the tunnel.
when people will learned in school suddenly the preachers in the mosques wouldn’t be so attractive.
Suddenly the chance to go to college,to earn a better salary,to build a better house and go to vacations abroad will be more appealing then go and be brainwashed by the sheiks.
that’s the smartest solution that I can think of.

Another day another terrorist attack in Jerusalem

i just got an infection in my foot

so after coming back from my amazing month and a half trip in Nepal and India I found a job as a security guard in my city hospital.

in Israel there is a lot beating and mess inside the hospitals because a lot of arabs folks coming over to see their family member that is getting treatment but if he die they blaming the doctors for his death and then they starting to beat someone or make some mess and that’s why I found a good paid job as a security guard in that hospital.

so of course it’s not going to be my one and only job and meanwhile i’m  learning to trade stocks and saving up my money for my upcoming moving to Germany (I’m going to study law in Dusseldorf) so between shifts in my job I do runs! how great is that!?

until this year I never ran, I really hate it and I was the laziest man alive on this planet but something change last summer, I started to run out of boringness in the army and now it became an addiction. so I try to keep my addiction up and “running” 2-3 times a week( I also got the new Microsoft band and it’s soo cool!!)so for the last couple of months I ran between 5 to 6 KM but 2 days ago I pushed myself further and ran 8.56 KM in 53 min.
while running nothing unique happened and I didn’t felt anything but the morning after I woke up and couldn’t stand on my left foot. I’ve felt like a bone inside it is broken or almost broken but still I have a shift in the hospital to go to. so I limped to my hospital (it’s about 4 KM from my house and I love to walk so I don’t take the bus/car) and like every time murphy rule came along to the shift and gave me a psychopathic woman whom refused to get treatment and the doctors ordered me to deny her from going out of the ER. so i chased her inside the ER for half an hour while limping, I coursed my life but now I’m thinking about it and laughing. so i did my 8 hours shift limping and went home acting brave and trying not to do a big deal out of it.
The day after I had a shift in a stationary position inside the hospital so it was fine but the walking to and from the hospital was hurting like hell. today I decided to go to my doctor and apparently he had a English student that has roots in Peru so when he saw me jacket (a one from Nepal with a unique sewing) he asked about it and if it from Peru I answered no and told him that it from Nepal and we started to have a chit-chat.
He and my doctor looked at my leg and the told me i got an infection in some weird Latin name muscle and that I have to take 3 days resting…so now I’m home resting and chilling how fun is that!

i just got an infection in my foot

music in (and) my life

 

(the picture in this post is from Kuolemanlaakso album cover) a picture that symbolize freedom to me as the character in the cover is craving from freedom

what is music for me?

music is a way, a tool and an addiction.

the way I feel and consume it-music is my way to express the deepest and most vivid feelings that I have,my emotions myself…me as an entity.

as I now 21 (almost 22 (; ) I experienced things in my life…especially in my childhood that as I absorbed them I managed to tackle them back through closing down my emotional expression.

I almost never express emotions or feelings to my surrounding..to mistakes I have a GF for 3 years and she hear me all the time that I love her and it’s true but the things is that in everyday life I can’t and embarrassed to express real emotional feelings.

when something make me funny I laughed. When I’m upset I yell and raises my voice but when it comes to express more “heavy” feelings then those 2..i can’t I just can’t.

in the recent year I noticed and been aware to this phenomena and I conclude why I can’t- I can’t because I’ve put wall the surround my deep self. And I noticed that the music that I listened to and addicted to for the last 21 year makes me feel and express things buy singing and dancing.

music is my way to break through the wall and make things come clearly out in the open.

a lot of close folks I’ve talked to about it said it’s a sad thing but I don’t thinks so because I like to keep my feelings safe from harming again. Why make them so out in the open if I can still feel (I can love and laugh and cry and getting upset) so why?

I love the way  music takes control over me and I don’t like to feel depend of things but when it comes to this thing. I love to give music the ability to control me and make me express things out in this creativity way.

I have this debate for almost couple of months but in the end of the day I love this way.

maybe it’s fear from trying the other way? maybe I’m afraid to getting hurt again?..it sure does hell..its a scary thing to try!

meanwhile I will continue to listen to my special music. Although I’m not sad, depress,mad i do listen to really niche genres in metal.

i like to listen to some doom metal like Swallow the sun, Draconian and Kuolemanlaakso(the death valley in finish) also I like female fronted metal bands that sings in soprano like Nightwish ,Xandria,Theatre of tragedy,Midnattsol and there are many more!

in my teenage days I used to listen to brutal death metal…I glad these days are behind me but once in a while I’m coming back to listen to some horrific tracks.

you know what’s funny? 90% of the bands i listen to regularly are from Germany, Finland and Norway..so I think it’s make us close to the big post about my moving to Germany…but not yet (;

music in (and) my life